Tonight, my heart is full; I feel so loved. Today is my birthday. For the past few days, I have been trying not to think of all the things I can’t do today. Popular trails closed due to too many people and too little social distancing. All three local Chinese restaurants (my favorite takeout food), closed. In person dining with friends, not possible. I live alone and would have to spend the day alone. I tried not to focus on these or listen to the voice in my mind that whispered, “This is going to suck.”
The thing is, my friends and family are amazing. First thing this morning, a dear friend called and sang me Happy Birthday. I felt so loved, I was close to tears as I listened. As she sang, she squashed that silly voice in my mind. This was going to be a great day; it already was.
One of the things I love about Facebook is the birthday wishes. I never remember birthdays outside of my immediate family without computerized help. I love having the opportunity to wish someone a happy birthday and think of them on their special day. I love receiving that out pouring of love and well wishing each year, especially this year. Several friends sent a text or email as well. One couple even sent an audio text of them singing Happy Birthday to me. It was like getting virtual hugs all day long.
I found things that I could do, even with a Stay at Home order. I made mocha cupcakes with espresso buttercream. (Note to self: try not to eat these right before bed. They have espresso in them!!) I bought plants, compost, and manure to start a vegetable garden soon. (Yes, I bought myself poop for my birthday.) I ordered a burger and fries from Five Guys with curbside pick up. What service! They were so fast that it took me longer to drive across town than it took them to cook it. I ended the evening with a few friends at a Zoom birthday party. Seeing and hearing from these beautiful souls was the icing on the cake of my day, even better than espresso buttercream. It was a great day.
I’m grateful I didn’t listen to that silly voice or focus too much on what I couldn’t do. I had a wonderful birthday. Thank you to everyone who sent more love into my day! Just knowing so many were thinking of me and sending love meant so much. Physically, I was alone today (except for my two awesome kitties) but I never felt alone. What seems like a small gesture to give, may not seem small to the one who receives it. Sometimes it makes all the difference.